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New Blog Feb. 7th, 2008 @ 11:54 pm
For all who still care,... I have a new blog. it is:


I tend to update that a little more than here!

Nov. 6th, 2005 @ 12:40 am
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

These made me cry... Sep. 29th, 2005 @ 12:09 am

Life is definitely crazy. I'm so... thankful for the trials that I have been given lately. MY life seems so easy in comparison to others. I can't imagine being a person so completely affected by the recent hurricanes like my grandparents have been. I don't know how they are holding up so strongly. Their life makes mine seem so insignificant and unimportant right now.


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Dancing! Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 12:20 am
Wardrobe key
You're a slightly tarnished metal key, and you
unlock the wardrobe. At first glance, you seem
to present only simple, everyday things, but
anyone who looks deeper will find much more.
Just don't expect everyone to believe in you,
and those who don't may not grasp your worth.

What sort of key are you and what do you unlock?
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I believe this fits me also. :)

So, I had a great time tonight and I was completely by myself! :) It was a blast. I went country dancing at PG Rec Center, and it was great because I didn't have anyone I had to talk to and I was completely and totally myself.

A guy asked me on a 'date' to go horseback riding, it would have been fun, but there was just something that didn't feel right about him and it kinda scared me. I told him no. Man I feel mean, that's two guys I've turned down in the past two days about giving my number to, but honestly, they just didn't feel right.

I met a guy, and I have to laugh at myself... I'm completely and utterly attracted to "older, computer nerds." This guy was completely nice and fun. And we just laughed and joked about ti because when he told me he worked in the IT department for a big company, I just started laughing and I told him that basically every guy I've 'seriously' dated since I moved out here from Iowa has been a computer nerd of some sort. :) We decided that it's just something about me that attracts those type of guys or... I am really just attracted to computer nerds. :) It was fun, and we laughed and joked about me giving him my number because I was telling him I'd was scared of that guy who asked me out. I don't really like to give my number out after one dance. I'd rather know him for a little while first.

So, anyway, I'm really really glad I went out tonight even though I went completely by myself and honestly, NO ONE showed up that told me they would. So... it was me, and I loved it!

I'm going to bed with a smile on my face!

Work... Life... Aug. 18th, 2005 @ 02:24 pm

So... I've been crazy busy lately, working 60hours a week doesn't give you time for much else but when I do have time I don't tend to do things I should do because all I want is a break. :)

Anyway, so here I am now updating on my current life status. Well, let's see... last Saturday while amytheprincess was on her wonderful hike, I was also doing a 20 mile hike up Mt. Timp. It was gorgeous and tons and tons of fun. I wish I had pictures to share. SO... it was a stake young singles adult activity I was in charge of. There were about 18 of us that went and it was great fun. We met at the church at 5:00am and headed up to the trailhead. Somehow I ended up hiking in the very last group, since we were waiting for everyone to show up. So... my group didn't head up on the trail until about 7:00-7:30ish and somehow, I ended up in the group of 4 guys and me. 4 guys who are incredibly in shape compared to me. Thus, my group left about an hour to an hour and a half after the first group and not even half way up the mountain we had passed everyone else. It was ridiculous. I ended up making it to the top in about 4 to 4 1/2 hours. I was about dead. Anyway, then we all sat on the top for a couple hours waiting for everyone else to make it up. Then we had a short little devotional (presented by Me!) on the beauty of God's creations. Finally we headed down the mountain. I ended up hiking with Jeremy Little and this girl named Bobbi Peterson down.

Now... Jeremy... well, I can't decide what I think about this. SO... here's the story, A few weeks ago for FHE we went ice blocking and Jeremy and I raced down the hill and bet the loser owed the other a PB&J. All in fun and games right? So...hiking Jeremy and I got to know each other a little better, and at times I was completely sure he was flirting with me and other times... well, I think we're just friends. It's complicated. But anyway, I still owe him a PB&J, we actually bet again during our hike down. It was great fun, but... I'm confused. Seriously he seemed interested in me for a while and other people will attest to that also, but ... then sitting in the car with him after the hike talking, he brought up my relationship with Zach... and to some extent implied to me that he's just waiting for Zach and I to get back together along with most of the rest of the guys in my ward. Which means... I can't get a date in the ward because everyone is expecting us to get back together. So, maybe Zach dating Kamille will help my situation? I don't know, I don't even know if they are dating but I assume they are or will. They are both good people. If he was going after someone who was completely not good enough for him I would have a bigger problem I think. But I'm doing well with him dating her I think. I'm completely jealous of her but I don't hate him or her.

So... on with my Jeremy story. In talking to him, he was the one that brought up my relationship with Zach... so maybe he was just trying to feel me out on my feelings there. I don't know. Guys are confusing. He seemed to honestly think that we'd try for a "2nd time around" as he put it. It's so... frustrating because I'm trying to squish this hope I have and people keep bringing it back up. :(

I think I could honestly be interested in Jeremy... except for one small problem. He's thinking about and probably will move in with Zach. And if I wanted to date him... well, I just don't know if that would work for me, because I still have some feelings for Zach. Also, dating in general is hard for me because I don't feel like its fair to date someone exclusivly when I still have feelings and care for Zach and much as I do. :( Depressing.

Now onto this week. Monday night for FHE half of my ward went over to the Oak Canyon Ward building because a bunch of guys in my ward were teaching the Oak Canyon ward how to Country Dance for FHE. So, we headed over there to dance with them. Well, Robbie was there. :) But I learned that he doesn't go by Robbie, it's Rob... but I tend to still call him Robbie. Anyway... that was fun. I honestly enjoyed talking with him. He's a great guy just like the rest of his family. And, we definitely flirted... but... I don't know if I can see something happening with him because I've always liked Randy. But I did make Robbie dance with me and that was fun. And... he continually came back to me to talk... when there were plenty of other people to talk to. That's always nice when someone puts effort into you.

Off the guy subject, onto life. I officially start working in the Pharmacy on the 27th! I'm soo... excited, and nervous. I've got soo... much to learn and study before I take the PTCB on November 19th. But it definitely keeps me busy and I need that.

I'm making a ton of money now too! I'm moving out of my parents house in January! I'm soo... excited, but I need to invest in a new laptop before then. I'll be completely out of debt and have school paid for by the end of November, so... I have all of December to save and buy a new laptop and a bedroom set. I think I might buy my bed off my parents if they'll let me... but who knows what they'll let me do. I definitely don't want to go back down to a twin size bed though.

I'm moving in with my friend Sara, into her townhouse in Lehi, when it's done being built! It's going to be great! I need some privacy, I can't even go into my room and close the door here at my parents because I don't have walls or a door and therefore, I usually go into my bathroom and sit on the floor when I need some 'alone time' it's depressing.

Well, I'm off to pretend I'm working for another hour. :)

Other entries
» Dreams...
I never remember my dreams... but lately, like the past week for instance I have had the same recurring two dreams every night and I remember them and I wake up depressed that they aren't true. I hate waking up depressed because then I hate starting a new day.

Life isn't fair. But whats new?

I'm really glad I'm working so much to keep me busy. I find that the less time I have at home the better it is for me. I hate to think and I hate missing what I know I can't have for now.

Maybe one of these days I'll go insane and quit dreaming, and wake up smiling for once.
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Comment anonymously and tell me.....

1 secret;
1 critique;
1 compliment;
1 wish;
1 question you want answered honestly

Blair and Amy, I hope you don't mind that I stole this. We'll see what people say to me. It'll be interesting.

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I've just made this a friends only Journal... so if you're not on my friends list... comment and I'll probably add you... I just had to keep certain people out of this! :)

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Check out this great site that is giving away totally FREE iPods!

I've joined and I think you should as well.

It's a completely legitimate offer, and this company has already given away $4 million in FREE stuff!

All you have to do is join, complete an online offer, and refer friends to do the same. That's it!

Here is my referral link. To help me get my iPod, click this exact link to join, or copy and paste it into a browser:

I was playing with Zach's iPod all last night and now I need one for myself... come on friends... HELP ME OUT!!

Man... I think I have a major crush...
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